I just wish i can jump into the abyss
So today, (Him) and I talking again. We talked quite a while, I still really like him. Love is a really complicate thing, but one thing for sure is, there is no win or lose in it, only love or don’t love. It is hard to decide in the between of them. Love (him) hurts because of what had happened, don’t love him hurts because that is force myself to do it. I am standing in the position that I could not have a good ending, I just choice to avoid it. But what good is that going to be? Sometimes I have wish that I have never meet (him) at the first place, and i wouldn’t be putting myself through this. And also i wouldn’t be in this whole cluster of mix emotions. I have already making myself as clam as possible. I just don’t know what to do anymore, and i don’t even know how to react to it anymore.
